Of Weddings & Marriages.

I discovered a new distraction.

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Vimeo.com

And I’ve been watching wedding clips. And I feel so happy for these people.

I’ve come to another point in life. My friends are getting married. Some already have kids. Others are planning for their weddings. Those aren’t engaged are thinking about the prospects of marriage with their partners. Those without partners are anxious because apparently, they are running out of time.

And me?

 

I am, as always, still my mama’s girl. I don’t want that to change anytime soon. And I refuse to be pressured by age and time.

I am happy with the Boyf and we are, as I would like to think, very ideal for each other. He completes me and makes me a better person every morning and every day. I cannot say I have anything to complain about, and I am not saying this to make him look or feel good. I just think that we are very good for each other. After more than 1.5 years, I still feel like I’m falling more in love with him each day, because he gives me reason to. And we are definitely not falling into any form of routine yet, which is great, in my opinion. Most important of all, we are not settling into a comfort zone. I’d take this as a very good sign because I’ve settled before, and I’ve fallen into the trap of being in a ‘comfortable’ relationship before, and I don’t like it. Complacent. Don’t get me wrong. Comfortable is good, when there’s still the prospect of making things exciting every now and then. But ‘comfortable’ is cruel when partners and lovers start taking things for granted with each other. And worse, taking things for granted. And it is from then on that things start to spiral downwards, and that is when loving him or her just isn’t enough anymore.

So, back to watching clips of peoples’ weddings. I’m loving it, the bride, the groom, the gown, the flowers and the people. Most importantly, the love. In fact,  I think that I might have turned gaga at the prospect of having a wedding for that very sake. A wedding! Me, getting wed. Phew.

Unfortunately, the whole constitution of marriage just doesn’t attract me at all. As far as I view it, getting married is not a priority in my life. Plainly put, I do not think it is for me. The very definition of marriage has been changed by the prospect of legal separation and divorce. And the fact that you’re getting married while considering that divorce is an option out  totally dissolves the very point of marriage, isn’t it? So, no. It is not that I do not trust the man I want to be with. But we all make mistakes, and hey, I have yet to meet enough married couples make it through thick and thin to make me believe that it is the right thing for me..

I suppose it’s got a lot to do with my culture and the way I have been brought up.. The generations before me did not make a good impression on me. I do not see ‘happily ever after’. Not that I expect it without a lot of sacrifices, hard work and commitments (which I am willing to do), but hey, I’ve seen more marriages dissolve into two-people-not-even-being-able-to-be-friends-but-still-sleep-in-the-same-room (resources do not include information on whether or not they still share the same bed, but you get my drift) than I can count with all my fingers and toes. And I am not blaming them for their mistakes and weaknesses, but I sure can thank these people for showing me how it might be being on my own two feet.. And it looks brighter than heading into the dark zone of being tied to a wrong partner. No offense to anyone in particular, but let’s just say you’ve scared me off because I don’t want to end up in a rut the way you did. All of you, in general.

As for now, I am happy with the way my relationship is working out with the Boyf. And we’ve talked about our future together, and marriage is still a long way, if it even come into our plans. For the next couple of years,we’re putting our education ahead of any plans that might change the equilibrium of this priority.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying no to the prospect of marriage in my life, not yet anyway. Neither am I opposing those who decided that this is what they want this early in life. I’m just merely stating my views on it and that for now, I’m happy not pursuing it.. A marriage is more than just a wedding. It is a commitment that lasts this entire lifetime.

I’m happy the way I am now. We are happy the way things are now. Very, happy.

And for all of you who are into these things,
I wish you love and happiness, that may yours be a marriage that inspires others.

 

 

Oh, but wouldn’t it be nice to be a bride.. Grin. I’ll settle for bridesmaid for now =p

 

Xx.

Intellectual Disabilities

For the sake  of people who are bombarding the people closest to me with questions about what I am doing here in Australia..

I volunteer at a disability centre. Intellectual disability centre. I have been doing this twice a week for several months now, and I am happy doing it. It is something I look forward to most days, and apart from having to wake up at a ridiculous hours of the morning on the days that I go to the centre, I actually don’t mind waking up. On the rare occasions that I dread having made this commitment, I regret feeling so the moment I walk into the centre and see the smile on their faces.

You see, I’ve become accustomed to them. I have to admit that right at the beginning I was a little bit apprehensive about this decision, having to work with people who not only have the mental age of about 2-5 years old, (some of them even have the emotional control of a 2 year old), but these people look a little bit different. I’m not saying like, Down Syndrome different. We’re talking about 50+ year old kids who can’t control their saliva and take care of their hygiene, heck, some have problems eating like the way we do. What worried me most was, communication. Some cannot even understand simple words, and some of them cannot speak properly. I was worried I might not be able to cope with their indifference.

Fortunately, they welcomed me into their group unceremoniously, but warmly. Over the months, I’ve seen their attitudes change from ‘not preferring me’ to ‘shouting my name from over the other room so that I help them out with something’. For example, one of the girls, who previously did not like me touching her things at all was calling for me when she saw me pass by the room she was in, and even though she knew I was not scheduled to assist in that class that morning, she insisted to wish me good morning before turning back to her own work. Awww. She remembered my name, and I didn’t even know when she had started learning it.

And this is why, I fell in love with going to the centre. The boyf’s getting sick of the fact that I cannot stop talking about it, and the people whom I work with, and the people whom I help with. Twice a week, I am reminded why I am taking this difficult road.. Most of my peers have started on their postgraduate pursue, and I am still stuck with no proper plans for the future until a university accepts me into their Clinical Psychology program.

I know that I’m saying might give you the impression that I’m really doing good, that I am indeed helping those who needs it, who needs me (a girl who’s got nothing but a better mental functioning), but really, it’s the other way around. I am not ashamed to admit that I am doing this for selfish reason. Because in truth, it is I who need them. Every time I walk into the centre, I feel the innocent love that only they are able to produce and I am once again reminded why I want to do this. I am passionate about helping them because the radiation of their innocence give me  the satisfaction that no other job could possibly provide me with.

I want to be able to help them, and the likes of them. And I want to be able to assist those whose kids are for whatever reason, like that. I want to be able to help those who are not able to help themselves. And I believe that, especially those with higher mental functioning, there is a way to bring them back into society. But there is no way I can do this without having that damn degree.

Every career pathway is about education these days, and unfortunately, I picked the road less taken.

All I ask from you, are prayers and hope. I know that someday I will get accepted into a university here in Melbourne, because I am a very good student. I just have a lesser background because I am not locally educated. So, keep me in your prayers if you’re religious and if you’re not, keep me in your hopes and dreams.. And in return, I promise to make it my mission to continue serving and helping the intellectually disabled. I feel that calling and I know it is my vocation. So, help me God.

(I have heaps for photos of them, but for their privacy’s sake and the centre’s policy, I cannot post them here.

But I’ll be happy to show them to family and friends).

Xx.

Stuck on Bruno Mars

The first time I heard “Billionaire”, I  could not get it out of my head. It was literally stuck in my head 24/7.
Now, with “Just the way you are” playing on the radio all the time, I can’t help but feel envious towards that girl whom he’s singing to. Maybe nobody, but hell, Bruno is definitely the top on my list of ‘wanted’ breath-taking singers whom I’d like to meet.
Kudos to him- singer/songwriter, heck, genius in fact, for coming up with not only such a catchy tune but also lyrics that any mentally healthy girl would die for a man to sing to her.
Lovely as that song is, I came across a slightly different version of this song on Youtube by Legaci. And I’m absolutely loving it.. I’ve been listening to their cover versions for a while now, but I just can’t stop watching this particular one that they’ve come up with.

Just the Way You Are–Legaci

Personally, as an amateur singer in choirs and all, I’ve always been attracted to those who sing the base parts. So, I’m loving Daiyel. Grin. But as a group, they are soooo good, I cannot emphasize enough how much I love their ‘almost’ acapella version of songs.
I am such there are many others who are as good out there, as you might have noticed just by surfin’ on Youtube. But this is one of my personal favourites =)
Here’s one more from Daiyel which I love to watch, more because I love the song than anything else.

I’m Yours–Daiyel

 

I’m not really a big fan of anything per say, so I’m not starting a fan page or anything like that.
But hey- if they’re good, they are good..

 

Xx. 

This is what being away is all about..

Over the weekend..

I had a small celebration with some friends. Nothing too big or eventful, but nevertheless, it is the thought that counts.

Photos courtesy of Claire MinKyeong Kim, Monica MinJung Kim, Nick Betts and my own camera..

.. While we were waiting for transport

Damn paparazzis ! =p

@ Yak Bar.. Bit late for the reservation we made for the restaurant, so had to wait by the bar.

Boys bored..

These mirrors were obviously not meant for Asian sized girls..

No idea why they decided to wear the same colour but it turned out so nicely..

And the occasion? My birthday!! .. Well, early birthday celebration. A couple of days too early. So, the last thing I was expecting was.. A CAKE! From Secret Recipe too. Muchas gracias, Nick!!

I have a big arse knife and I am not afraid to use it ! =p

 

And we all went home drunk that night.. Grin. NOT ! We were well behaved despite that bottle of wine and other bottle of champagne.. Gotta say that I’m really proud of moi!

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Thank you all, for making it such a wonderful occasion for me.. Especially since it’s my first one away from home
=( .. Can’t deny that I miss home very, very much.. But you’ve all provided a great distraction to that void. And for that, thank you @Alex Pava, @Monica (MJ), @Claire & @Nick Betts !

Xx.

Nails and tales

Over the past few weeks, my finger nails have been progressively getting shorter and shorter. If it’s not because of a chip, it’s caused by a crack. And I get so fed up, so I just cut them shorter. It grows a little bit more, and I cut them short again.

Now, everyone who is close enough to me would know that I am very anal about my long nails. Personally, I find that nails can tell a lot about a person’s personality- how one keeps them and how one takes care of them. Lol. Yeah, somehow it’s these little details that keeps me attracted to people =p And I mean girls too. I’d stare at them all night if I thought they were hot, not in a “I am attracted to you” way, but more like “Wow, you’re hot. Now, how do I replicate that without being your clone” type of way.

That aside, I take pride in my nails. I love them long and pretty. I rarely ever keep them short, because I don’t like it short. Sheesh. And this has been ever since I left school (except for the rare occasions that I have to keep them short for piano purposes). Anyway, I’ve been having bad nails of late, and I suspect once again it’s caused by the Australian dry weather. Possibly.

So, the other day, I decided to do something for them once and for all. I got them done! Bio-Sculpture Gel style, baybeh!! Lol. Not only did the manicurist fixed all my  broken nails with some silk thingamabob, she totally made it look so natural I don’t even feel like my nails have be “done up”. It’s a little too early for me to judge the effects of this new found discovery, but so far, I’m loving it because I don’t look like I just bit my nails off with a saw anymore. This totally suit my lifestyle because I’ve never been the gentle and slow moving girl, I’ve always been more of a kick-the-chair-and-knock-my-hands-onto-the-table-at-least-once-a-day kinda girl, so, now I don’t really have to worry about breaking another nail. At least for a next couple of weeks.

Not the best shot ever, cause the boyf isn’t very good at snapping photos =p

But I’m pretty now =b

Xx.

Sometimes it's just a little too late.

A couple of months ago I was complaining about the boyf being stuck on WOW.


Now, I was never brought up with these type of technology, admittedly as a child I was envious of my friends whose parents got them video games and computer games whilst mine never got me any. As a result of that, I have never been interested in any kind of games and could never understand how it can be so interesting as to take over one's life altogether. 


And so, with the boyf's persistence, I decided to give it a go. He plays a long list of computer games (and still managed to be a smart arse in school) and I decided, hey, let's try WOW because he often plays it with his younger sister and I'd like to be in the loop too. 


Here what's I gathered after playing for the past 2 months:

1. It is, indeed an interesting game that WILL consume your free time if you do not have control over your addiction.
   
2. If you start playing  from a young age (any game at all, not necessarily WOW per say), you'd be quite good at it, because it is not too difficult learning how to play it.. (Either that, or I have an expert of a boyf who already knows all the back roads and alley way to this game).
   
3. If you're a late bloomer, like yours truly, there is no way in hell you'll pick up this game and be an expert in it, ever. And you'll forever have that expert boyf of yours breathe down your throat because he expects you to play as well as him or his sister. (Either that, or I just am very bad in reading maps and have atrocious eye-hand coordination).
   
4. Always start with a druid. Because you can choose to be DPS, Tank, or Healer.. (I did awesome DPS and now, I think I might double spec it to be Kitty Cat Meeeow!).. I'm also the pretty night elf, btw =p
   
5. Get a damn wireless mouse and always remember to charge it! I really hate it when I have to play while it's connected to the charger. But investments, are, as always.. worth it.
   
6. Alliance really suck when it comes to battlegrounds. Really, really, really, suck. (Note to self: get a horde).
   
7. Always play with someone who's got control of his/her addiction of the game. Otherwise life will pass you by before you even know it. Grin.

So, there. I can learn all the theories and alley roads if these game, but I honestly believe that it is too late for me to be excellent in this game.. 

Xx.

Tivo! My Guilty Pleasure.

This morning I woke up, and for the first time all week, I did not have anything urgent to attend to. Well, I do, but shopping plans only starts later =b But I did not have to be somewhere by 8, 9 , or 10 in the a.m., for a change. 
So, I woke up (surprisingly early despite the fact that I planned to sleep in late), checked my email,fb, msn, twitter and the such, and what with the rainy day outside, I decided to watch some tv because I haven’t done so in ages! Guilty pleasures..
And this was when I realized ..that all the tv shows I absolutely have to watch begins with G – in order of loves; Grey’s Anatomy, Gossip Girl & Glee!! Yeay!
I’ve been trying to watch Vampire Diaries since everyone’s talking so much about it. Lol. I don’t mind watching it if I’m dead bored and have nothing else to watch. BUT, it’s not my kinda chase.
Ooo, and The Big Bang Theory. Must watch ever! Absolutely love it.
Admittedly, I love my Hong Kong & Taiwanese dramas too! Haven’t come around to the craze of Korean dramas yet, don’t know if I would ever come to my ‘senses’. Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure they’re good but I don’t get watching something I don’t understand.. 
What is your favourite TV show? I’d love some recommendations because I’m getting a little sick of waiting for each episode to magically appear by the week. Grin.
What will I do without tv shows? Ahh, you changed my life forever.
Xx.