Fcked Up

Tell me again why do you even pretend to care when all you're gonna do after I pour out my heart and soul is to throw the facts back into my face again. 

You live in this wonderful world with perfect people around you and have amazing families who support you through and through, even when you're being an idiot.

Wtf would you know about my fcking *3rd world country misery!!? It's like a friggin charade here, and you just won't know what's gonna happen in the next hour. Perhaps you could do us all a favour and just throw over a bomb that will consume us all then in that way, it's gonna be a win-win situation for us all because you'd be able to continue living in your own perfect world without ever having to acknowledge that any of us fcked up ones ever existed. 

I'm about as close to giving up so that I can stop pretending that I can make this hole a better place for everyone because the only one who had faith in me has lost all belief.

Fck U.

X.


*I know that we're not a 3rd world country but we might as well be considered as one because of the our mentalities, damnit.

The Other Type of Girl

Dear all,
I have a question.
What’s it with boys and looking at girls who manages to be everywhere and look absofrigginlutely gorgeous every second of the day?
I mean, if you’re single and totally available then fine. But if you have your hands and arms wrapped around a girl you claim as your girlf, then, why is it there always seem to be someone else better looking lurkin around each and everytime you go out that catches your eye that you have to pretend to scratch your head to take a second look at her, or stop to look for something in your pocket just so you can take a second peek without your girlf suspecting anything?
And the Boyf’s eye-level is 3 heads higher than mine, I wouldn’t even know if he’s doing it and that is just NOT cool!
Talk about double standards.
You like looking at these girls BUT it’s okay if I feel 1546378987 times uglier than her because “you love me even if I’m not as attractive anyway”, right? Yeah, right.
So, out of plain curiousity, I’d like to know what is it that interests you that you have to take a second look at these girls.
Her boobs and/or arse? Her strut? Her style? Her 32 24 32 ? Grin. Don’t know what the perfect measurement is these days.
I’m just curious.
I know what catches my attention about a girl. Her babydoll look.

It seems to be the fad today which I’m not planning to chase anytime soon or even throughout this lifetime. It seems like too much effort that these girls put in, the blond hair, the 1234584376543 layers of make up, the thought of matching-your-make-up- to-your-nails-to-your-hair-to-your-8-inch-shoes, I’d be too lazy to even get out of bed!
But my point is, if I’m inclined to looking (and sometimes staring) at these girls, then you guys must be going gaga over these girls, kan?
So, is this look really what does it for you? Is this why you give them more attention than you do to me?
But, it’s just wayy too much effort for my liking.
Plus, there’s this theory that these girls are really fugly beneath all that make-up. Maybe I should stick to my “barely there” look just so I don’t fit into that stereotype.
Anyway, I have my men friends who said that those aren’t the kinda girls they’d like to settle down with. So, if that’s the case, then all that effort would be wasted anyway because I don’t wanna be your call girl, tyvm!
Grin.
Xx.

Cravings..

I’m a little hungry now.
Because I’ve been trying to eat lesser these days, if not to lose weight then just for my general health.

And because of this whole withdrawal symptom from eating till my stomach bloats from flatulence, I’ve been having cravings for some specific food.
Here’s some of them in no specific order;

1. Fried oysters
2. Assam Laksa
3. Steamed cod fish or any other fish is fine
4. Seaweed
5. Boiled eggs
6. Marmite
7. … That Korean triangular rice thingy
8. Korean food in general
9. Japanese soup noodles
10. … Anything tasty. I have fussy taste buds.
11. Instant noodles- specifically IndoMee & Mamee Tom Yam Noodles!!

Xx.

Making Her Up

Over the weekend (the previous one, of course), I met up some old friends from school. We’ve been hanging out as a group for almost 10 years now, and NO I did not leave school 10 years ago, tyvm! So.. Dinner @Ole Ole Bali of which the Avocado Shake is absofrigginlutely awesome!
*Photos to be posted soon, I hope. Hey, I didn’t take pictures that night, it was someone else camera and if she doesn’t upload & tag me on FB, then I’ll just have to wait till she does!
Anyway, what do girls do when they get together? Apart from the catching up and all that, of course Wai Teng had some wonderful news that topped all of ours, which is besides the point. After updating each other on the necessities (because we can!), we talked about make-up again. The not-so-new fad is back- eyeliner. I think that I can safely conclude that we’ve gone round the bush with lipgloss, mascara, bronzer, highlighter, blush, etc.. Anyway, then came the debate of which make-up we liked best.
All of us have tried Kate’s Gel Eye-Liner.
And a couple of us stuck to it. I never owned one, but once upon a time on our 6-day trip to Bangkok (where the 5 of us had to fight for that typical hotel-room-sized-mirror every morning) I had the opportunity to try them in 3 colours- black, brown and black with them glitters. It’s great because you can sweat like a farm pig and it still wouldn’t smudge. Can anyone say Chak Tu Chak Market @ Bangkok !? Yeah, you get the idea. Anyway,  you can get it from any leading pharmacies (Watson/Guardian,duh!) and even SaSa for RM 49.90 or something of that sort, and it even comes with a brush. Not really promoting it or anything, but since we’re talking about this, I might as well post up all the information I got from the girls.
Then, there’s the whole debate of M.A.C or Bobbi Brown producing better make-up !! Unnecessary, but totally educational. A couple of years ago, I used to patronize M.A.C. I had the whole works going on- well, some of it. Mascara, Gel Eyeliner, bronzer/highlighter. And I still like it.. To an extent. Because I discovered Bobbi Brown! IMPO, BB’s gel eyeliner totally lasts longer than M.A.C because it doesn’t even smudge even after a long’s night out at the club and after a crazy workout. Admittedly, I sometimes workout or go for jogs with my make up on because I’m too lazy to get them off prior. Grin.
Unfortunately, M.A.C doesn’t last too long on my face after I oil up or sweat. So.. My pot of jet black gel eyeliner by M.A.C is still half-full after 2 years whilst my pot of bronze shimmer gel eyeliner by BB is almost a 3/4 empty. Maybe I’m biased, I’ve learned to love the whole earthy look, thereby using less black these days. Unless the occasion calls for sexy! Lol.
Anyway, without undermining M.A.C because I still use their products, I think that BB has better eyeliners! Sorry @Wai Teng. Grin.

Since we’re talking about BB. I’m not ashamed to admit that I can’t leave the house without applying my BB Shimmer Bricks without feeling naked. Now, I know you think I sound like a complete bimbo by now, BUT FYI EVERY GIRL DESERVES TO FEEL LIKE A PRINCESS EVERYDAY! And if feeling like a princess means applying a thin layer of “barely there” make-up, then leave her be !! Sheesh!

This is me. Apricot Shimmer Bricks by Bobbi Brown ! Unfortunately, I think it’s no longer available in this colour (daymn! everytime you find something you like, they discontinue it in that specific colour!- and I quote this from P.S. I love you by Cecelia Ahern) so ya’ll will just have to find another colour that suits you best. The Sister uses the exact same thing in the colour Rose.
Even the Boyf has come to terms that we love BB so much that we cannot leave the house without shimmering it up!
Btw, it works awesome as an eye shadow as well!
All in all, we’ve come a long way since those fugly days we had in school.
Can’t believe I used to walk around like that..


Grin.


Xx.

More photos of the Boyf & I

Admittedly, I’ve been neglecting my blog.
That’s only because so many things has happened lately.
And I’m not here to update you about my life.. Or the major parts anyway.
At least, not yet.
But here are some awesome photos of the Boyf and I while he was here.

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And the third part is courtesy of (grin, i actually stole it) Nick Betts!

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Yeay. Loves.

Xx.

The Poyo People

I don't think that I'm awfully judgmental.
But, being human and all that, I can't help myself sometimes..


Today met someone who's first year med, and the first semester only started last week.
(For anonymousity's sake, let's call this someone A).
Which means- this is A's 6^th day of classes into the semester (assuming that A's got classes all last week).


I cannot speak for everyone BUT I have friends who's done med, are still doing med and to make matters worse for A,
I am dating a med student.
And I have never seen any of my med friends or boyf going bonkers and crazy!


Yeah, so I get that it's a tough course, 
(SO IS PSYCHOLOGY OK!! Damn attention-seeking giler, but whatever -_- )
but to walk about looking like a zombie and telling people that it's normal because A's a med student.


So, it's not like anyone put a gun to your head and asked you to do med, kan? Just deal with it!
It's like those people who are fasting and has to declare to the whole world that they're fasting.


OMFG!! Damn poyo right!!?


It's in the Bible, yo. God will bless those who fast in silence okay!!


Grr. Just needed to vent.




Xx.

The “Pride” of Men, yeah right.

There are a million things that I love about mankind, and if you’re literate you’d realize that it includes women. Pfft.
We’re intelligent creatures, because we are able to weigh our possibilities and systematically work towards a rational and logical decision.
Unfortunately, we are also nature’s worst beast. But maybe I’ll look into writing up about that later.
My point today here is that I absolutely detest the pride of men. Now, don’t get me wrong because it is the pride that gets me attracted to the male population in the first place. But to a certain limit, and a rational one at that.
We are all predisposed to being attracted to certain traits that we deem worthy of the opposite sex (of in some case, the same sex which by the way, I am not judging). Like, whether or not that man can fend of us in time of trouble and provide for us in the times of need.
I’m getting way out of topic now BUT this is really cause yours truly is sooo annoyed with that man she saw on the street this afternoon.
So, I was in a hurry because I was gonna have some lunch with some friends and I was already running late because parking’s a bitch in Sunway i tell you !
And here was a man, holding his keys out (I should have known it was too good to be true), and so I followed behind him like a loyal and trained pet for about 150 metres and I even indicated with my lights that I’m gonna be taking his lot after him. And he reached his car, went into the car, and did God knows what for a whole minute or so, which felt like eternity by the way. And all this while, he looked over to my direction several times. And guess what he had to guts to do !!? Just take a wild guess !!
He got out of his car, locked it, walked backwards to my direction and never looked at me one bit !! WTF !!?!? Seriously !?!?! What kind of human is that? More like, what kind of man is that !?!? Do they seriously exist ?!!? Talk about a useless piece of crap. He didn’t even have to courtesy to tell me he wasn’t leaving, or apologize, or even GESTURED that he was not going to leave !! Seriously man, wtf !?!? I wasted a good 2 minutes or so there when I could have left and look for a better parking spot (which I did, btw..).
So, that’s all. Needed to express my frustration.. Of old chinky men!
By the by, your so called “pride” makes you look stupid, if you didn’t already know. Kinda pointless to act all prideful and macho and all that, isn’t it?

Xx.